Sussan XXX

I opened my laptop and quickly found the video file I was looking for it was named “Little Chrissy’s First Time”  I clicked on it and the video opened ready to play.

I moved the mouse pointer over the play button and hesitated for a moment, then I clicked play.

The title faded and the video started. A young girl was standing holding a teddy bear in what appeared to be a bed room, except on both side of the room  were large lights on stands, it was a film studio, to the left of the lights on a tripod was a video camera.  The room was pink and behind the girl was a bed with teddy bears on it, it looked like a child’s bedroom.

The girl looked very young, she was pretty with long dark hair and had a very slim petite figure and was wearing a school uniform with white socks, black shoes, and a blue top and skirt.

You could see the girl was frightened, she just stood there grasping the teddy bear, her head down staring at the floor. A man walked in and stood next to the girl. He was a big older man with grey hair and a grey beard, he looked about 65, or possibly older and he was fat with a large belly, he was wearing jeans and a shirt. The old man just stood there for a moment looking at the young girl.

Then the man turned to face the camera and said: “She’s a very pretty girl and only just twelve years old”. ( that was a lie,I knew the girl was older then that)  “She’s learning to play the piano and she’s good at school, her parents must be very proud of her. she’s a very nice decent girl and even goes to church. I can assure you, this girl has never been touched by a man before, she is still pure, her hymen is still completely intact, yes, she’s a very beautiful sweet innocent little virgin”

Then in the video stopped for a moment and a picture appeared, adverising what other young girls “First Time Videos” that were available to down load, for a price. You could see the old man, who was knowen as “Big Old George” who had raped those poor young girls, it even had a close up, showing how large his revolting penis was. In the center was a new girl and first time video was now availbul to download. It even showed a close up so you could see that the girl stll had her hymen intact, as proff that the poor young girl had definitly been a virgin before that horrible old man had raped her.

 

The video continued and I watched as the old man took the girl over to the bed and made her sit down beside him. The camera followed them.

Sitting next to each other on the edge of the bed the old man took the teddy bear away from her and put it behind them. Still holding her arm he spoke to the girl “You don’t want to be punished again do you”

The girl shook her head and mumbled a No. The man continued “ Now are you going to be a good girl and behave yourself ?”

The girl answered, by nodding her head and very softly she said. “Yes”.

The man put his and under her chin, lifting her head up and telling her to keep looking at the camera.

And as the girl stared at the camera, the man said:

 “Now lets show the camera what a pretty girl you are”

Then still holding the girls arm with one hand while with his other hand he undid the top button of her blouse, slowly he started unbuttoning the girls blouse. As he undid the third top button, you could see the girls eyes filled with tears, by the forth button the girl was crying. The frightened girl just sat there staring into the camera, her hands tightly grasping the edge of the bed with tears running down her cheeks while the man slowly unbuttoned her blouse, then he opened her blouse, pulling it wide apart so that her small breasts were fully exposed.

“What a pretty girl” he exclaimed asking her  “Has a man ever touched you here before”

The sobbing young girl shook her head. Then the old man put his hand on her breasts and stated feeling them, his large hands easily covering the young girls small budding breasts.

“Very nice” The man said.

The camera zoomed in for a close up, as the old man grouped and squeezed, kneading her small breasts. The girl had closed her eyes in shame and she just sat there rigid, not moving, crying, while the horrible man felt her breasts. After a  moment the man said. “Sh’e got very nice firm little tits”

He took his hand away and pushed the girl backwards onto the bed and then he put it his hand on her knee saying.

“Now Lets show the camera what nice legs you have”

Then he pushed and pulled her skirt up until it was up round her waist above her little white panties.

I clicked on the stop button then. I had tears in my eyes now, because, I knew what happened next, I knew exactly what that horrible old man had done to that poor innocent young girl. I knew how she’d cried out for her mummy and begged the old man to stop, and how she’d been filmed screaming in pain when the horribul old had raped her. I knew, because, I was the girl in the video, Yes, it was me.

That was my, what they called “First time video” my debut film. These so called first time videos of young girls being raped, having their virginity taken and being broken in were very popular, and sold well on the dark net.  

After the terrible experience I had of making my first time video and being broken in by that horribule old man, I was soar and in pain after what that old man had done to me, so they left me alone for a few days to get better. Finally when they decided I was usable again, Then everyday, I was either taken to what was knowen as the “Pink room” for VIP clients to use me, or to the film studio.

In the beginning I cried a lot, but that was probably just what they wanted. In the film studio it was awful what the men did to me, they filmed everything.  I felt so ashamed, but at least it didn’t hurt, not like the first time when they’d filmed me being held down on the bed, a strong hooded man held my legs apart, so that the horrible fat old man could rape me. That old man took my virginity and broke me in.

I was very young when I was abducted. I had only just had my thirteenth birthday two days before I was taken. I was abducted by a group of men who specialised in making child pornography and sold the videos on the dark net. The young innocent girls they abducted were then filmed forcibly having there virginity taken, these so called “First time videos” were the most popular.

I’m forty five now. After the police rescued me, I spent nearly three years in psychiatric care and only now am I finally able to talk openly about what happened to me. I don’t feel ashamed any more now, because it wasn’t my fault, I was forced to let those horrible men do the terrible and disgusting things they did to me, I was not to blame, I had no choice.

I was a nice sweet young girl, very pretty with a slim figure and long brown hair, Thats probably why I was chosen, taken. At that time I still very innocentl, not at all interested in boys and I knew nothing about sex.

I was abducted by a group of paedophile’s, who specialised in making child pornography. They held me captive for nearly a year, during that time I was repeatedly raped, abused and forced to make disgusting videos on a daily basis.

This is my story.

I can remember very clearly the day I was taken.

Mum was yelling at me as I went out the front door. “Don’t take the short cut, and don’t be late back, Don’t talk to strangers”, I hated it when she treated me like a child, I wasn’t a child anymore, I was thirteen now, only just, but now I was a teenager.

I’d just changed out of my school uniform and  put jeans and a sweat shirt on. I hated my school uniform because you had to wear a skirt,  I was very shy and hated people looking at my legs. I was going round to my girl friends house, which I did nearly every day after school. Her house was just 5 minutes walk away.

Susan was a nice innocent young girl, she was a very pretty girl and only just 13 years old when she was abducted.

While walking round to a girlfriends house after school one afternoon she just disappeared, finally a year later Susan was rescued, du to a police raid on the premises where the disgusting films were being produced, She was fond in a small back room with another girl of similar age, It was just a simple room with two beds, a toilet, washbasin and shower cubical. Both girls were chained to the wall by a length of chain that was padlocked round there ankles,. The girls were only released when they were taken for filming  or to a small bedroom that was known as the pink room, it was decorated like a little girls bedroom with dolls and teddy bears and had a bed in the middle of the room.   In this room the girls were abused by paedophiles, knowen as VIP clients. Men that had paid to use them, for half an hour or an hour, sometimes it was 10 men or even more per day. If a girl was difficult or refused to let a man do what he wanted to her and if the man hadn’t been completely satisfied with her. She would be punished, severely punished, either the soles of her feet would be caned or an electric prodder would  be used on her. The men were not merciful and it was extremely painful for the girl, usually after a girl had been punished once or twice she quickly learnt to let the men do what they wanted.

Susan: I was very innocent and I knew nothing about sex. After being taken, I was filmed being raped by an old man and forced to have sex with men but not just with old men,  I was filmed being forced to do some other really disgusting things. Because of what they did to me and forced me to do, I lost  any sort of self respect I could possibly have. I felt so ashamed and disgusted. That when they told me, after all these disgusting things I had done, That now my parents certainly wouldn’t  want me as a daughter anymore, no parent would want a dirty little slut as a daughter.  My parents would disown me.  I had to understand and accept the fact that I was now a dirty little slut, and that I belonged to them, they owned me now, they were the only friends I had now.  My parents and any friends I had before I was taken would certainly never want to see me again. When they told me that, I really believed them. From then on I had to learn to perform and act while they were filming me as if I was really enjoying having sex with those horrible old men.

My parents were quite strict, they were very careful about what films I could watch on TV, and I wasn’t allowed a smart phone, Dad said I could have one when I was older, he was also very strict about me using his computer and going on the internet.

Religion, my parents took me to church with them and we went about once a month, my mother always took communion, but dad didn’t. I wanted to but dad said it was better I waited till I was old enough to make up my own mind, in fact it was just a week before I was taken that I had my first communion.

It’s difficult for me to talk about what happened next and what they did too me.

I was still a very innocent girl, especially regarding Sex: I knew about the birds and the bees, I wasn’t that stupid. At that young age, I knew a man had a penis and the female a vagina, and when they got married and went to bed together the mans penis went in the women’s vagina and they made a baby. But basically, I was still very naïve in that direction. But my mother had told me that sex was something very private and special for a couple who were in love or married. and it was very important for a decent girl to stay a virgin and save herself until she met the right partner and got married or otherwise she might never find a nice man who would really love and respect her.

I was a very shy girl, I knew I was pretty, boys and men looked at me, which I didn’t like and found very embarrassing. I now regard being pretty a curse, if only I’d been fat and ugly then I wouldn’t have been chosen, taken, the men who took me, only wanted very pretty, young girls for there disgusting films that they sold on the dark net.

Taken.

While walking round to my friends house I didn’t take any notice of the parked van, as I walked past it, suddenly I was grabbed from behind and a cloth was held over my face, it all happened very quickly.

I regained consciousness with a splitting head ache, still in my clothes laying on a bed in a small room. A chain was padlocked round my ankle the other end was fixed to a bolt in the wall. There was another bed in the room and a toilet, washbasin and a  small shower cubical . There was no window just a light bulb hanging from the ceiling. Next to the bed I was laying on was a small bed side cabinet with a bottle of water and some sandwiches on it.

I screamed for help, but nobody came, I just sat on the bed crying. I was frightened and wanted to go home, after drinking most of the water I fell asleep. When I woke up the light was still on and there was anther full bottle of water and some crisps and chocolate. I don’t know how long Id been asleep. I yelled and screamed again, then after a few minutes I heard the door being unlocked and a man came in.

He sat down on the other bed opposite me, he was quite a big man, probably about the same age as my dad. I begged and pleaded to him to let me go. He just told me that if I was a good girl and did what I was told, then I could go home very soon. Then he got up and left the room, locking the door behind him.

After drinking the water I fell asleep again.

Punishment, School uniform, posing for my first video photo session.

The next time I woke up, I was hungry, so I ate all the sandwiches and just as I’d finished I heard the door being unlocked and the same man came in again, he had some clothes in a plastic bag with him, he put the bag down on the bed next to me, then he sat on the other bed opposite me.

Again I begged him to let me go, I told him my mum and dad would be really worried and he would get into trouble with the police if he didn’t let me go home. He told me, I would only be allowed to go home if I did what he told me to. Then he told me, I had to take a shower and change into the clothes he put on the bed, I was to wear only those clothes and to put all my own clothes in the bag.

I looked at the clothes, it was a school uniform, except the skirt very short, I certainly wasn’t going to wear a skirt that short. What sort of girl did he think I was? So, of course I said no. I certainly wasn’t going to put those clothes on and I didn’t need a shower, I just wanted to go home. I didn’t know then why I had been taken and what they were going to do to me. My abduction must have been planed, someone must have seen me and decided I was the just the sort of girl they needed, a very pretty, sweet, innocent young girl, just perfect for the type of disgusting films they made and then sold on the dark net.     

The man didn’t say anything he just got up and went out the room. I think he was used to the new girls being difficult, it was normal when a new girl arrived that at first she would obviously refuse  to do what they wanted. It was only a few minutes before he came back in the room with another man who was holding a cane.

They grabbed me, they were strong and forced me to lay face down on the bed with my feet hanging over the end of the bed, one man sat on my legs and he held my ankles, while the other man pulled my sneakers and socks off. And they used the that cane on the soles of my feet.

I screamed in pain every time he hit me, he just kept doing it, again and again, nobody had ever hurt me like that before, and all the time while he used the can on me he kept on telling me, I had to learn to do as I was told. Finally when he stopped, I was crying in pain, my feet were really hurting. He gave me a small bottle of water to drink and I had to drink all the water. Then the two men left the room. I wanted to go to the toilet and I had to crawl on my knees because my feet were hurting so much that I  couldn’t walk properly. That was my first punishment. They punished all the new girls in this way. It was extremely painful and it didn’t leave any visual marks on the girls body.

I slept and when I woke my feet were still hurting but at least I could stand up. I heard the door being unlocked and the man came back in the room carrying the cane, I was absolutely petrified of him  of him now and cowered away from him. He whooshed the cane through the air and told me to shower and change into the clothes,  he unlocked the padlock and took the  chain off my ankle. Telling me he’d be back shortly and I better be showered and changed or, the cane whooshed , I’d get another beating.

I did what he said, I was really scared and knew I would be caned again if I didn’t do what he wanted. I  showered, there was every thing there shampoo, shower jell and towels, even a hair dryer and hair brush. I dried my hair and changed into the clothes. It was a school uniform, a blue skirt that was very short, a white short sleeved blouse, white ankle socks and white cotton panties and black shoes. Then I sat on the bed and waited.

This time when he came in the room he was carrying a camera on a tripod, I think it was a video camera, and he still had the cane with him.

He looked at me and said, I was a good girl and he hoped he wouldn’t have to use the cane on me again. While he set the camera up in front of me. I asked him again if he would let me go and would he let me go home soon. He just said it depends, but first he needed some photos and a short video of me and if I was a very good girl then they would let me go home, that was a lie.

Before he stood behind the camera he took a gold chain with a crucifix out of his pocket, he put that on me so it was hanging down in front of my blouse.

Standing behind the camera . He told me to sit up straight with my hands by my side, look at the camera and read out the text on the boards he was going to hold up.

He switched the camera on, a red light came on so I knew the video camera was on. I wanted to cove my face with my hands, I didn’t want to be videoed or photographed.

Now with the camera on he stood behind it and held up the first board with writing on it and I read it out loud.

“I’m 13 years old”

Then he held the next board up.

“I’m good at school and I’m learning  to play the piano”

And after that he held up another two boards and each time I had to read out loud whatever it said on the board.

“I’m a good girl and I go to church every Sunday with my mummy and daddy”

“I’m a virgin. I have never kissed a boy and I have never been touched by a man.

And that was the absolute truth, I was a dcent girl, just that I didn’t go to church every Sunday but I did go to church with my parents about once a month.

The man told me to Stand up, I did what he said. I tried to pull then hem of the short skirt iI was wearing down a bit, as i it was very short.

“Now do what I tell you to, or I’ll have to use this on you.” He picked up the cane threatening me with it asking me. “Do you want to be canned again?”

“No please, don’t hurt me” I pleded.

I can remember him saying, that I was a nice decent girl and that my parents must be very proud to have such a pretty daughter. And he wanted me to show the camera, what a nice pretty girl I was.

And then, I was really shocked, when he told me to take my clothes off. I just stood there for a moment not really believing what he had just said.

Then he threatened me with the cane, telling me I wouldn’t  be able to walk for a week and he would never let me go home. I knew I had too do what he wanted or he would have punished me again. He added that I could leave my shoes and socks on.

I started crying then as I slowly undressed. I had never felt so ashamed and embarrassed in my life.

I had to stand naked in front of the camera with my hands by my side, in just my shoes and socks, with my panties pushed down round my ankles, while he took pictures of me. I was so embarrassed, nobody had ever looked at me with out my clothes on before and I just stood there crying.

I had to turn around and stand on my toes  so my legs looked nice, then bend over keeping my legs straight and touch my toes. while he took photos and videoed me.  I didn’t know it then, but those photos and a short video were put on the internet to promote customers to pay to watch the live streaming of my “First Time Video” And for the VIP clients, so they could  book me after I’d been broken in.

I was allowed to get dressed again. He gave me a Long T-shirt to sleep in and a dressing gown to wear. I had to hang the school uniform up on a hook in the wall so it wouldn’t get creased.

These first photos and video of the new girl were posted later today. They already had a lot of customers waiting, wanting to see a new pretty girl. This new girl would be broken in tomorrow. The sooner a new girl was broken in the better, so she could then be put to work in the film studio or pink room and start earning money for them.

Old man George would be doing her tomorrow morning, he was nearly 70 years old. a big fat old man and he was big in more ways then one,  he was good at breaking in the new girls and he was very popular,  he had quite a following, the videos of him breaking in innocent, pretty, young virgins were the best sellers.

My First Time Video

I always seemed  to feel tied so I slept easily. The next day after I’d been photographed , I was told to shower and put the school uniform on again, I knew if I didn’t do what he said I would be caned again and I was petrified they would do that to me again.

The man came and he held my arm and took me to another room, it was just out the door and about two doors down the hall way. I didn’t know what was going to happen to me, I was hopping they were going to let me go, or perhaps more photos and then they would let me go.

The room I was taken to was much bigger, the walls were pink and there was a bed with a white sheet and a pillow with  a small teddy bear on it. Next to the bed was a bed side table, on it was a small vase with some flowers, and  a stool.

The room looked like a young girls bedroom, except for the large video cameras on tripods placed around the bed and the bright lights on stands also positioned around the bed. Hanging down over the bed was a microphone, like you see them using on TV. The room looked like a professional film studio.

I had to stand in by the bed holding a teddy in front of the cameras. I saw one of the men the put a hood over his head so he couldn’t be identified.  

The camera man brushed my hair and positioned the crucifix so it was hanging on top of my shirt, he told me to hold the teddy bear and look at the camera. Then he stood back and looked at me. I asked him again if I could go home, as after this video he said I could go home, he’d said just one more video then I could home.

He told me, if I was a good girl and didn’t make any fuss, then after he’d finished filming I could go home. I promise you, but if your difficult and I have to cane you again and we have to make the video again and again until you get it right, then you definitely wont be going home. Do you understand.

I nodded my head. I just so desperately wanted to go home, even if he made me take my clothes off again, I would do it, and then I could go home, I just wanted to go home.

He looked at his watch, then went round switching the cameras on and adjusting them, just as he finished adjusting the last camera the door opened and a man came in. He was a much older man, I’d never seen him before. He was grey haired, nearly bold and quite fat, he had a large stomach, his blue shirt was stretched over it, it looked like his shirt was to small and he was wearing jeans, he could have been old enough to be my grand father,  but he didn’t look like a very  nice man.

The two of them talked for a moment, then the old man came over to me, he stood next to me looking at me.

He asked the man standing behind the camera. if he wanted me done back and front. I didn’t understand what he meant, I was very naïve, I thought he meant to take photos from my front and back.