I opened my laptop and quickly found the video file I was looking for it was named “Little Chrissy’s First Time”  I clicked on it and the video opened ready to play.

I moved the mouse pointer over the play button and hesitated for a moment, then I clicked play.

The title faded and the video started. A young girl was standing holding a teddy bear in what appeared to be a bed room, except on both side of the room  were large lights on stands, it was a film studio, to the left of the lights on a tripod was a video camera.  The room was pink and behind the girl was a bed with teddy bears on it, it looked like a child’s bedroom.

The girl looked very young, she was pretty with long dark hair and had a very slim petite figure and was wearing a school uniform with white socks, black shoes, and a blue top and skirt.

You could see the girl was frightened, she just stood there grasping the teddy bear, her head down staring at the floor. A man walked in and stood next to the girl. He was a big older man with grey hair and a grey beard, he looked about 65, or possibly older and he was fat with a large belly, he was wearing jeans and a shirt. The old man just stood there for a moment looking at the young girl.

Then man turned to face the camera and said: “She’s a very pretty girl and only just thirteen, She’s learning to play the piano and she’s good at school, her parents must be very proud of her. she’s a very nice decent girl and even goes to church. I can assure you, this girl has never been touched by a man before, she is still pure, her hymen is still completely intact, yes, she is a beautiful sweet innocent little virgin”

Then in the video a picture appeared, amongst other things, it also showed  you what other young girls First Time Videos were available.

The video continued and I watched as the old man led the girl over to the bed and made her sit down beside him. The camera followed them.

Sitting next to each other on the edge of the bed the old man took the teddy bear away from her and put it behind them. Still holding her arm he spoke to the girl “you don’t want to be punished again do you”

The girl shook her head and mumbled a No. The man continued “ Now are you going to be a good girl and behave yourself ?”

The girl answered, by nodding her head and very softly she said. “Yes”.

The man put his and under her chin, lifting her head up and telling her to keep looking at the camera.

And as the girl stared at the camera, the man said:

 “Now lets show the camera what a pretty girl you are”

Then still holding the girls arm with one hand while with his other hand he undid the top button of her blouse, slowly he started unbuttoning the girls blouse. As he undid the third top button, you could see the girls eyes filled with tears, by the forth button the girl was crying. The frightened girl just sat there staring into the camera, her hands tightly grasping the edge of the bed with tears running down her cheeks while the man slowly unbuttoned her blouse, then he opened her blouse, pulling it wide apart so that her small breasts were fully exposed.

“What a pretty girl” he exclaimed asking her  “Has a man ever touched you here before”

The sobbing young girl shook her head. Then the old man put his hand on her breasts and stated feeling them, his large hands easily covering the young girls small budding breasts.

“Very nice” The man said.

The camera zoomed in for a close up, as the old man grouped and squeezed, kneading her small breasts. The girl had closed her eyes in shame and she just sat there rigid, not moving, crying, while the horrible man felt her breasts. After a  moment the man said. “Very nice firm little tits”

He took his hand away and pushed the girl backwards onto the bed and then he put it his hand on her knee saying.

“Now Lets show the camera what nice legs you have”

Then he pushed and pulled her skirt up until it was up round her waist above her little white panties.

I clicked on the stop button then. I had tears in my eyes now, because, I knew what happened next, I knew exactly what that horrible old man did to that poor innocent thirteen year old girl. I knew, because, I was the girl in the video, Yes, it was me.

Twelve years ago I’d been abducted. I had only just had my thirteenth birthday two days before I was taken. I was abducted by a group of men who specialised in making child pornography and sold the videos on the dark net. The young innocent girls they abducted were then filmed forcibly having there virginity taken, these so called “First time videos” were the most popular.

I’m twenty five now. After the police rescued me, I spent nearly three years in psychiatric care and only now am I finally able to talk openly about what happened to me. I don’t feel ashamed any more now, because it wasn’t my fault, I was forced to let those horrible men do the terrible and disgusting things they did to me, I was not to blame, I had no choice.

I was a nice sweet young girl, very pretty with a slim figure and long brown hair, Thats probably why I was chosen, taken. At that time I was still a very innocent girl, not at all interested in boys and knew nothing about sex.

I was abducted by a group of paedophile’s, who specialised in making child pornography. They held me captive for nearly a year, during that time I was repeatedly raped, abused and forced to make disgusting videos on a daily basis.

This is my story.

I can remember very clearly the day I was taken.

Mum was yelling at me as I went out the front door. “Don’t take the short cut, and don’t be late back, Don’t talk to strangers”, I hated it when she treated me like a child, I wasn’t a child anymore, I was thirteen now, only just, but now I was a teenager.

I’d just changed out of my school uniform and  put jeans and a sweat shirt on. I hated my school uniform because you had to wear a skirt,  I was very shy and hated people looking at my legs. I was going round to my girl friends house, which I did nearly every day after school. Her house was just 5 minutes walk away.

Susan was a nice innocent young girl, she was a very pretty girl and only just 13 years old when she was abducted.

While walking round to a girlfriends house after school one afternoon she just disappeared, finally a year later Susan was rescued, du to a police raid on the premises where the disgusting films were being produced, She was fond in a small back room with another girl of similar age, It was just a simple room with two beds, a toilet, washbasin and shower cubical. Both girls were chained to the wall by a length of chain that was padlocked round there ankles,. The girls were only released when they were taken for filming  or at weekends they were taken to a small bedroom that was known as the pink room, it was decorated like a little girls bedroom with dolls and teddy bears and had a bed in the middle of the room.   In this room at weekends the girls were abused by paedophiles, men that had paid to use them, for half an hour or an hour, sometimes it was 10 men or even more per day. If a girl was difficult or refused to let a man do what he wanted to her and if the man hadn’t been completely satisfied with her. She would be punished, severely punished, either the soles of her feet would be caned or an electric prodder would  be used on her. The men were not merciful and it was extremely painful for the girl, usually after a girl had been punished once or twice she quickly learnt to let the men do what they wanted.

Susan: I was a very innocent girl and knew nothing about sex. After being taken, I was filmed being raped by an old man and forced to have sex with men but not just with old men,  I was filmed being forced to do some really disgusting things. Because of what they did to me and forced me to do, I lost  any sort of self respect I could possibly have. I felt so ashamed and disgusted. That when they told me, after all these disgusting things I had done, my parents certainly wouldn’t  want me as a daughter anymore, no parent would want a dirty little slut as a daughter.  My parents would disown me.  I had to understand and accept the fact that I was now a dirty little slut, and that I belonged to them, they owned me now, they were the only friends I had now.  My parents and any friends I had before I was taken would certainly never want to see me again. When they told me that, I really believed them. From then on I had to learn to perform and act while they were filming me as if I was really enjoying having sex with those horrible old men.

My parents were quite strict, they were very careful about what films I could watch on TV, and I wasn’t allowed a smart phone, Dad said I could have one when I was older, he was also very strict about me using his computer and going on the internet.

Religion, my parents took me to church with them and we went about once a month, my mother always took communion, but dad didn’t. I wanted to but dad said it was better I waited till I was old enough to make up my own mind, in fact it was just a week before I was taken that I had my first communion.

It’s difficult for me to talk about what happened next and what they did too me.

I was a very innocent girl especially regarding Sex: I knew about the birds and the bees, I wasn’t that stupid. At that young age, I knew a man had a penis and the female a vagina, and when they got married and went to bed together the mans penis went in the women’s vagina and they made a baby. But basically, I was still very naïve in that direction. But my mother had told me that sex was something very private and special for a couple who were in love or married. and it was very important for a decent girl to stay a virgin and save herself until she met the right partner and got married or otherwise she might never find a nice man who would really love and respect her.

I was a very shy girl, I knew I was pretty, boys and men looked at me, which I didn’t like and found very embarrassing. I now regard being pretty a curse, if only I’d been fat and ugly then I wouldn’t have been chosen, taken, the men who took me, only wanted very pretty, young girls for there disgusting films that they sold on the dark net.

Taken.

While walking round to my friends house I didn’t take any notice of the parked van, as I walked past it, suddenly I was grabbed from behind and a cloth was held over my face, it all happened very quickly.

I regained consciousness with a splitting head ache, still in my clothes laying on a bed in a small room. A chain was padlocked round my ankle the other end was fixed to a bolt in the wall. There was another bed in the room and a toilet, washbasin and a  small shower cubical . There was no window just a light bulb hanging from the ceiling. Next to the bed I was laying on was a small bed side cabinet with a bottle of water and some sandwiches on it.

I screamed for help, but nobody came, I just sat on the bed crying. I was frightened and wanted to go home, after drinking most of the water I fell asleep. When I woke up the light was still on and there was anther full bottle of water and some crisps and chocolate. I don’t know how long Id been asleep. I yelled and screamed again, then after a few minutes I heard the door being unlocked and a man came in.

He sat down on the other bed opposite me, he was quite a big man, probably about the same age as my dad. I begged and pleaded to him to let me go. He just told me a if I was a good girl and did what I was told, then I could go home very soon. Then he got up and left the room, locking the door behind him.

After drinking the water I fell asleep again.

Punishment, School uniform, posing for my first video photo session.

The next time I woke up, I was hungry, so I ate all the sandwiches and just as I’d finished I heard the door being unlocked and the same man came in again, he had some clothes in a plastic bag with him, he put the bag down on the bed next to me, then he sat on the other bed opposite me.

Again I begged him to let me go, I told him my mum and dad would be really worried and he would get into trouble with the police if he didn’t let me go home. He told me, I would only be allowed to go home if I did what he told me to. Then he told me, I had to take a shower and change into the clothes he put on the bed, I was to wear only those clothes and to put all my own clothes in the bag.

I looked at the clothes, it was a school uniform, except the skirt very short, I certainly wasn’t going to wear a skirt that short. What sort of girl did he think I was? So, of course I said no. I certainly wasn’t going to put those clothes on and I didn’t need a shower, I just wanted to go home. I didn’t know then why I had been taken and what they were going to do to me. My abduction must have been planed, someone must have seen me and decided I was the just the sort of girl they needed, a very pretty, sweet, innocent young girl, just perfect for the type of disgusting films they made and then sold on the dark net.     

The man didn’t say anything he just got up and went out the room. I think he was used to the new girls being difficult, it was normal when a new girl arrived that at first she would obviously refuse  to do what they wanted. It was only a few minutes before he came back in the room with another man who was holding a cane.

They grabbed me, they were strong and forced me to lay face down on the bed with my feet hanging over the end of the bed, one man sat on my legs and he held my ankles, while the other man pulled my sneakers and socks off. And they used the that cane on the soles of my feet.

I screamed in pain every time he hit me, he just kept doing it, again and again, nobody had ever hurt me like that before, and all the time while he used the can on me he kept on telling me, I had to learn to do as I was told. Finally when he stopped, I was crying in pain, my feet were really hurting. He gave me a small bottle of water to drink and I had to drink all the water. Then the two men left the room. I wanted to go to the toilet and I had to crawl on my knees because my feet were hurting so much that I  couldn’t walk properly. That was my first punishment. They punished all the new girls in this way. It was extremely painful and it didn’t leave any visual marks on the girls body.

I slept and when I woke my feet were still hurting but at least I could stand up. I heard the door being unlocked and the man came back in the room carrying the cane, I was absolutely petrified of him  of him now and cowered away from him. He whooshed the cane through the air and told me to shower and change into the clothes,  he unlocked the padlock and took the  chain off my ankle. Telling me he’d be back shortly and I better be showered and changed or, the cane whooshed , I’d get another beating.

I did what he said, I was really scared and knew I would be caned again if I didn’t do what he wanted. I  showered, there was every thing there shampoo, shower jell and towels, even a hair dryer and hair brush. I dried my hair and changed into the clothes. It was a school uniform, a blue skirt that was very short, a white short sleeved blouse, white ankle socks and white cotton panties and black shoes. Then I sat on the bed and waited.

This time when he came in the room he was carrying a camera on a tripod, I think it was a video camera, and he still had the cane with him.

He looked at me and said, I was a good girl and he hoped he wouldn’t have to use the cane on me again. While he set the camera up in front of me. I asked him again if he would let me go and would he let me go home soon. He just said it depends, but first he needed some photos and short video of me and if I was a very good girl then they would let me go home, that was a lie.

Before he stood behind the camera he took a gold chain with a crucifix out of his pocket, he put that on me so it was hanging down in front of my blouse.

Standing behind the camera . He told me to sit up straight with my hands by my side, look at the camera and read out load the text on the boards he was going to hold up.

He switched the camera on, a red light came on so I knew the video camera was on. I wanted to cove my face with my hands, I didn’t want to be videoed or photographed.